Since when have titles become optional?!

The title shows indeed very much my grieving process of the moment. And no, nobody died, thankfully, not even you, dear blog! Because, me, your air, your food, your water-your everything- is BACK!….Oh I now feel so important again!….I am not going to talk about anything that has happened meanwhile, because that would be a little more than extremelly very very much. At the moment, on the other hand, i am overwhelmingly busy. I have 6 hours to write some poems-2, more precisely-, then write them on the computer, and do some other crap aswell. Oh, and if i have not mentioned, it is night time- half past twelve, more precisely-. So i’m gonna go!

Until next time, goodbye!!

Never too late??…[29.06.2011]

Happy birthday blog!!!!!!!!……I just wanted to wish my blog-you??…..-a so very warm “happy birthday” since you-my blog-, turned 1 on the 13th of  May, 2011.Well i know i missed that day with another 16….but at least it is still May! I cannot believe it’s been a whole year!….I’ve talked and written about so many things: abuot the PET exam-I honestly have no idea why I begun with that…-,my trips, my friends, alin, music….poetry…..One of my biggest pleasures is wandering through all those posts and reread them…..laugh sometimes, sigh sometimes…..but they always manage to take me back at that moment…..

French music??![27.04.2011]

Hello my dearest, poor, forgotten blog.Well, to begin, I must promise that I’ll never promise anything anymore, because I never manage to keep what gets out of my mouth-or what my fingers type,whatever-.Actually I promise that this and the previous one will be the last ones EVER-on the blog, of course-.To go on…..i’m out of ideas but something just passed through my mind:i’d like to kill myself for not writing anything in 4 months because Ihatemondayzzz was starting to gain readers-it has gone from none to two-and now it will probably be back to the zeroness-invented a word!-.If you’re wondering what does the title have to do with what i have just written above, my very wise answer will be “i have no idea!”, because the only french song I’ve been listenng to is J’y suis jamais allé – Yann Tiersen-and yes, I copy-pasted it- from a movie I have never seen.Ok…what else??….I’m now a friendless loser-like that’s news!-but at least before i was not friendless in the real sense of the word, but now it’s fully acomplished and entirely true-.

Definining “myself”….[04.01.2011]

Where to start??…..Sure!!…explain the title!…or not. It’s 2011: one year and something left to live, and also the ending of one of my life’s worst years-or THE WORST, if you will-.And now just so I remember-’cause it’s been so long sice my last post that I’d be surprised if anyone will ever come back here…. this poor blog is such a wreckage- in this past 365 days my grandfather has died, my mother has gotten pregnant….and other stuff like this. I honestly do not know how to take in everything surounding me, sice there are so many all of the sudden. Santa brought me nothing this Christmas-except from unpleasantness, of course, if you look above-. Tomorrow school starts again and it turns out math won’t solve it’s own problems, so the homework is, almost as always, not even half-done…..Hm…so, after all this crap I have decided that I needed a major change of behaviour, and this if one of my two new year’s resolutions. The other one is not no eat so much chocolate and loose some extra weight. And here’s what I wanna do: 1.First of all think one billion times before I say, write, eat, do, buy anything;  2.try not to listen to othe kind of  music than the one that is or expresses who I am or what I feel;  3.not to blush when “some people” talk to me- for eg. teachers-;  4.not to smile so much or seem to have the perfect mood all the time;  5.read MORE;  6.study A LOT MORE;  7.go to bed before 11 o’clock-so I can wake up the following morning…on time-;  8.constantly remind myself that life is a gift and that we all need to take the best of it;  9.try not to get mad often;  10.not to stay on the computer more than 3 or maximum 4 hours a day on weekends, and one hour and a half on Mondays, Tuesdays, Wednesdays, Thursdays and Fridays;  11. if this could be possible…..turn 18 faster, move to America and finally start living the way I WANT TO LIVE, without concerning about not being myself; 12.talk and think more wisely, MUCH more!!!  And I’m done because I’m just about to break one of my resolutions: go to bed before 11 o’clock:it’s twenty past ten and I still have to take a shower and  blah blah….

What the hell??!…[16.11.2010]

I cannot believe it’s been a month and four days since I last wrote something in here. I now want to post this so that everyone-everyone=nobody- would know I’m not dead-yet-. So 2010 is almost over-how is that possible??…it felt like a week or something-. I honestly didn’t have time to  stop and realize how fast time passes through and ask myself what am I doing ’cause there have been 14 years of total hollowness in my life. Nothing has happened in the past month outside school and it’s crap. Hmmmm……yup!…..and there’s the homework on the desk. Screaming….

Empty-minded…[12.10.2010]

Finally a day in which I have time to post something.Hmm….first of all I have to admit that I still don’t know whether to thank or kill Flory for putting a link of my blog on hers -but whaterver, it’s done already so I guess a murder is no longer needed-. So the title of theis post refers to the “future name” of my and flory’s “future blog” for which we don’t have name yet-and no ideas aswell-.Oh, actually she does. Sorry, this is getting stupid. So now we do have one: chewingminds-how crazy is that??…..-. Yeah….well, I wanna see if it works so I’m gonna end this post now.

Random….[08.10.2010]

Hm….I’ve just talked with Flory-bucla- and she was saying so much good stuff about my blog, the posts on it, and the fact that they all are in English, and she made me want to start rewriting on Ihatemondayzzz. Not so long ago I decided to slowly “forget” intentionally about it because I can hardly find some time to post something and I thought that the previous “everything” was so boring and stupid, with no purpose and so useless. After this I’m gonna start reading all I’ve written so far and at least try to convince myself that nothing here is the way I said it is formerly. This week’s been super exhausting, 2 days ago and yesterday I finished my homework at 12 o’clock-or around twelve, whatever- and then started all over- that means waking up at 6:30, going to school, trying to stay  awake during the classes etc.-

P.S.: Thank you so much flory for everything and btw-and I didn’t say this  ’cause you went to take a bath and I forgot-: your posts are so FUKING AWESOME, with so much cool and intresting stuff in them I can’t even describe it. You’re WAY better than me and yea……love you!

Long time no see…[28.09.2010]

So it’s been more than a month since I wrote my last very interesting and magnificent post. Nothing happened since then- or at leatst nothing that should be written about-. Hmm….school started, I’ve been to a party last Sunday, teachers have already started to give us marks -and that’s fast, but not bad, i think-. It’s Tuesday and tomorrow’s  gonna be the worst day of the week-really, Wednesday I have some horrible classes with horrible teachers-.Oh, it’s half past ten and I’ve gotta go wash my hair so I’m just gonna apopogize and forgive myself for forgetting about Ihatemondayzzz-which  should become Ihatewednesdayzzz-  and hopefully this won’t happen again- I said hopefully-.

Ahm…ok. that’s weird. [22.08.2010]

Ok so it’s been 9 days since I wrote my last post and that happened cause’ I’ve just waited for stomething to write about-like something at least beyond usual[ I think that that means interesting-oh...-]. And I have to say there’s still nothing to  say. I met a boy, my friend’s cousin- I haven’t actually met him NOW because I’ve known him for a couple  of months- but 3 days ago I’ve had the oportunity to chat, see the way he is and blah blah-translation: super nice, NOT shy at all- and i mention that because I thought he was-,  ahm…funny??. and I think he likes me a bit-god!-. And I say “god” because he already has a girlfriend and also because he’s 18. And a half. Ok…enough about him. I went to a pool where I’ve been swimming all the time with that guy-ahm, I’m talking about him again- but it was a lot of fun. One of my best friends had slept at my place for the first time-and I was an awesome host because we slept on the floor-pleasant, yeah,yeah–. Oh….and I’m done.

Nom nom nom nom nom nom nom nom…[13.08.2010]

I was just watching one of ijustine’s vlogs on youtube in which she was talking about a clip which contains a song named “nom nom nom nom nom nom nom nom” and it just keeps going over and over again with that nomming.Today I have also discovered a new singer. His name is conor something- I think conor orbst- but I’m not very sure about that. This guy  has some great songs-I actually have listened just to one of them but never mind-. he’s still great. The song’s name is: “Milk thistle”- and today I’ve also learnt the meaning of the word “thistle”-. I’m sorry I haven’t written in such a long time-5 days are a lot-. and I also want to say hi to Flory and to thank her for reading my posts-I hope you still do, buclo-. Ok, that’s all for now…